I don’t know what I’m doing
Overwhelmed by my thoughts and feelings
Is it okay to continue how I’ve been living?
Lost, with no idea of where I’m heading
I want to be free from fear and anxiety
But where do I start?
How do I find my new beginning?
Or am I meant to live a life of suffering?
Or is this life’s true meaning?
The struggle to keep feeling
The struggle to keep dreaming
The struggle to keep living.
I watch you shatter
I watch you scatter across the floor
I watch you pick up the pieces
trying to make yourself whole
I see you struggling with burning emotions
Yet your expression is stone cold
I want reach out to you
But I know it’s something I can’t do
So I’ll do my best at what I can do
So that one day you can be you
The you that you want to
I want to get mad at you
But I know
That everything you said was true
No matter what I do
I just can’t get mad at you
You hurt me
And I hurt you too
Can you tell me
What am I supposed to do?
I just want you and me
To go back to how we used to be
I wish I had told you that
When there used to be a you and me
Then maybe there wouldn’t be a you
And someone I wish that was me
You’ve broken my heart
But I don’t want us to grow apart
It pains me
Everytime you look at me
I feel something inside of me starting to cry
But I’ll smile
Because it’s better that you never knew
How I really feel for you
So we can continue to be
What we always will be
Why do I keep looking even though it hurts?
I keep looking BECAUSE it hurts
I want to keep looking
To keep feeling this pain
Am I crazy?
Or maybe that’s what I’m preventing
Stopping myself from being insane
So I hold on to the one thing I know that makes me human
So I look at this image
I look at them together
I take in the pain
So at least I can tell others
I loved her
I know I did
Because each time I see them
I can feel it
The pain of my heart shattering
Shattering into tiny little pieces
I miss being in love
To have someone you can’t stop thinking about even when you’re extremely busy
Someone who makes you happy even when the world is being shitty
Someone that no matter what they do they’re so damn pretty
Someone that you’d do anything for no matter how risky
Someone that makes you think “How am I so lucky?”
I miss the feeling of being in love
And the feeling of someone loving me
My chest feels hollow
From the pain and the sorrow
From all the things I keep on losing
My purpose to get up in the morning
A love to keep my heart warm and beating
Nothing seems to be going right for me
When will I be able to be happy?